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# Therapy Saved My Life 10 Years Ago. Hopefully It Will Do It Again
- URL: https://jonathanpeykar.com/therapy-saved-my-life-10-years-ago-hopefully-it-will-do-it-again/
- Published: 2026-09-01T10:25:18.000Z
- Updated: 2026-09-03T09:43:19.000Z
- Description: I need help
- Author: Jonathan Peykar
- Tags: Self-Improvement

My anxieties have gotten out of control.

I’ve been trying to resist them for the past four years, but I almost can’t take it anymore.

I developed a chronic habit of checking things.

I check if my apartment’s door is locked four times a day, I brush my teeth for 15 minutes each time, I check my bag to see if my laptop is there… you get the point (the most absurd anxiety I had was doing blood tests for STDs every couple of months).

I thought it would pass with time, or, at the very least, I thought I could live with it.

“According to what you’re telling me, you developed OCD, you know,” my therapist said.

“I know.”

## Tipping point

I left my job in January 2024 and didn’t know what to expect.

I did know, however, that there was a vicious war going on in Gaza (I’m Israeli), and I had roughly $30k saved. I also knew I didn’t want a job. I wanted to shoot my shot in business again and build something I love working on.

Eighteen months later, I failed.

To be fair, I worked with 12 different clients throughout that period and made some money.

It wasn’t enough though.

Slowly, my burn rate increased, and I was two months away from going broke. I have felt depression before. I felt pain, I felt anxiety, but this was a different kind of stress. It wasn’t necessarily more “intense.” But for the first time in years, I felt like my back was against the wall.

It was as if a black hole appeared out of nowhere and came to swallow me alive.

Nooooo.

I couldn’t even bear the thought of having to go back to a day job.

Surely not in an office. At that point, going back to my “former life” terrified me. I think I now realize what ex-cons mean in movies when they say, “I’d rather die than go back to prison.”

I had no idea what to do next.

Then my mom told me, “Why don’t you do some tutoring?”

## A safety net

I had never imagined I would tutor children.

Most of my English students are teenagers, but I get many calls from parents telling me their kids need help. So I go with the flow.

At first, I had one student. A week later, I had two. Then a month later, I had ten, and this little tutoring business grew all the way to 22 students. I thank God for it. I could breathe a little, live a little, and take some time off to think about my next move.

The best thing about this business is that it allowed me to relax. Never put your eggs in one basket. It could feel “awesome” to go all in on one thing, but if you’re wrong, the results could be disastrous.

The time off I took to chill made me realize I need help.

If my anxieties were something I could have dealt with myself, if they were something negligible, then it would have been better by now.

It doesn’t.

I need help.

Reality never lies.

## Back to basics

I’m a big fan of improving your fundamentals when things don’t work.

Many solutions to problems in business, career, and relationships are more simple than complicated. These problems may not be easy to deal with. Sometimes they’re hard to solve.

However, if these topics seem complicated, we’re probably doing something wrong. If I can demolish only half of my anxieties through therapy, I’ll have much more free energy. I’m hoping I will be able to do that. Whatever happens, I’m much stronger than I was two years ago.

Thank God for the challenges he put me through.[](https://medium.com/@lifeofjohnny?source=post%5Fpage---byline--ffbf59ab84f3---------------------------------------)